Thursday, September 22, 2011

Moment for Meditation

At Columbia St. Mary's where I work, there is a phone number to call if you want a "Moment for Meditation." I thought I would share today's reflections:

May today there be peace within you.
May you trust that you are exactly where you are meant to be today.
May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith in yourself and in others.
May you use the gifts that you have recieved and then pass on the love that has been given to you.
May you be content with yourself with just the way you are.

Let this knowledge settle into your soul and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, work, play, praise, and love your God every day of your life.
Because it is there for each and every one of us.
Blessings upon your day and your life.


what if.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Canticle of Creation- St. Francis

A quick drawing I did of the Canticle of Creation-- People here like it too much. I'll try to do something much better.

One above all other, most powerful, utterly good God, 
All the praise glory, honor and blessing belong to you before anyone else.
They are yours alone, we are not good enough to even speak your name. 
May all your creation and its creatures praise you.

First and foremost, Brother Sun, 
Who brings the day, and who you created to shine light on life. 
He is beautiful and radiant in all his splendor.
His majesty points to you. 

Sister Moon too, shouts your name,
And the stars of the whole universe as you formed them, 
shining clear and precious and beautiful. 

In Brother Wind blows the sound of your name,
Through the air, stormy and still, 
And every kind of weather, which feeds and waters the land,
Sustaining the tapestry of the life you created. 

Sister Water praises you too, 
Water, which is vital to life,
Simple and yet precious and pure.

Praise to you is heard in the roar of Brother Fire,
Through him you give light and warmth in the dark, cold night, 
He is entrancing, playful yet powerful, even dangerous.

Sister, Mother Earth, on whom life flourishes,
She who provides the rhythm of life and the sustenance we need,
Her rich colors, sweet flavors, and aromatic herbs, 
Paint a picture of your goodness. 

We lift our eyes to you,
Through the stories of those who suffer,
And endure pain who yet still love you,
Through the peace of those great people,
Who deserve your honor above the rest of us. 

Even in Sister Death, the death of our bodies, 
Which is inescapable for every single one of us,
We sing the greatness of your name. 

It is terrible to die in the grip of greed and selfish living
Yet those who die in the knowledge of your great love and purpose,
Even thought they too cannot escape the death of the body,
They will continue to live with you, they have nothing further to fear. 

We shout your name out loud, 
We thank you for all life, 
May we follow you and serve your purpose with the utmost humility. Amen. 




Original text in Umbrian dialect:
Altissimu, onnipotente bon Signore,
Tue so le laude, la gloria e l'honore et onne benedictione.
Ad Te solo, Altissimo, se konfano,
et nullu homo ène dignu te mentouare.
Laudato sie, mi Signore cum tucte le Tue creature,
spetialmente messor lo frate Sole,
lo qual è iorno, et allumini noi per lui.
Et ellu è bellu e radiante cum grande splendore:
de Te, Altissimo, porta significatione.
Laudato si, mi Signore, per sora Luna e le stelle:
in celu l'ài formate clarite et pretiose et belle.
Laudato si, mi Signore, per frate Uento
et per aere et nubilo et sereno et onne tempo,
per lo quale, a le Tue creature dài sustentamento.
Laudato si, mi Signore, per sor'Acqua,
la quale è multo utile et humile et pretiosa et casta.
Laudato si, mi Signore, per frate Focu,
per lo quale ennallumini la nocte:
ed ello è bello et iucundo et robustoso et forte.
Laudato si, mi Signore, per sora nostra matre Terra,
la quale ne sustenta et gouerna,
et produce diuersi fructi con coloriti fior et herba.
Laudato si, mi Signore, per quelli ke perdonano per lo Tuo amore
et sostengono infirmitate et tribulatione.
Beati quelli ke 'l sosterranno in pace,
ka da Te, Altissimo, sirano incoronati.
Laudato si mi Signore, per sora nostra Morte corporale,
da la quale nullu homo uiuente pò skappare:
guai a quelli ke morrano ne le peccata mortali;
beati quelli ke trouarà ne le Tue sanctissime uoluntati,
ka la morte secunda no 'l farrà male.
Laudate et benedicete mi Signore et rengratiate
e seruiteli cum grande humilitate.

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

If you are a criminal, invest in a tie.

The other day mi compañero Martin accidentally locked the keys of our CapCorps car inside the car. We had just attained the very old, beat up Ford Tempo the day previous, and thus just gotten the keys as well. Obviously. But, that also meant we hadn't separated the extra copy of the keys from each other-- they were on the same ring that all got locked in the car. Whoops.

So, in order to avoid paying a locksmith money that we don't have for a car that came with empty bottles, cans, and a bag of opened chips in the back, we asked the help of Messmer staff to get into the car. First, myself and Joe (Shelly's husband... Shelly is one of the co-directors of CapCorps) took a crowbar to the window and tried to get a wire hanger through. Unfortunately, we weren't able to get the hanger close enough to press the unlock button. Then came Messmer Maintenance staff, who had their own wire hanger tricks, and better ways to crack open the car with said crowbar. Eventually, they were successful, and had a good laugh at our expense once they realized that both copies of the keys had been locked in. I think the exact words were, "Oh what it is to be young, and STUPID."

That, however, is not the point of this entry. The car was parked outside our house, which is the old rectory to the church next to us and right next to Messmer Prep. It's not exactly a big street, but it is right in front of a school, there is a bar at the opposite corner too. And there we were, trying to break into a car. What bugged me about the whole thing was that everyone assumed it was our car, and that we had locked the keys in. In fact, a police car drove by at one point and didn't even stop to ask us anything.

At first, it was myself and Joe, white male who was wearing slacks and a tie. The Messmer dudes were also white men. Did the police not stop because the group was mostly white men? Or because Joe was wearing a tie?

You know that if we were a group of black men or latinos, there would have been so much more suspicion.

You might be thinking, well YEA, someone wearing a tie is probably not trying to steal a car. But why do you think that? And why is it more suspicious if it had been a group of black men? What's the difference? There is no difference! That no one was suspicious seems to me to be a great example of white privilege. At the very least, discrimination based on appearance, because we didn't "look" like criminals.

So, all those who are thinking of turning to a life of crime, I offer a bit of advice. I know you cannot change your race and thus the racism you will experience. But you can invest in a tie. Apparently that might be enough to evade suspicion. Maybe throw on a pair of glasses, look smart.


think about it. 

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Prayer for a Missioner (but really, for all of us)

I pray that you are broken.
        Broken beyond doubt.
I pray this, because this is how you must grow. When you are broken beyond doubt, you can see clearly that your God is already and always with you. When you are broken beyond doubt, you can walk humbly and softly with others, who are also broken. 

I pray that you are broken.
           Broken beyond doubt.
Because we all are. But not all of us know it. 

I pray that you are broken.
That way, you are also blessed and broken to be shared as and in the Body of Christ. 

Amen. 

Sister/Brotherhood

A deep breath.

There is so much to learn, so much to absorb, so much to taste and see and drink. I mean, of course, in the sense of experience. I've been in Milwaukee for almost two weeks now, and I'm getting used to it already. So far, so good. The first week was orientation for both the domestic and international volunteers, and this week we have started work and the international volunteers have a second week of orientation. Thing is, CapCorps and Columbia St. Mary's are still working out the contract for me to serve here, so I have only done one thing work related this week. Otherwise, I've been dropping in to the international orientation and sharing thoughts.

Obviously there is a lot to talk about, but I'm going to focus this entry on one thing: Sister/Brotherhood. This is a deep root of Franciscan Spirituality that I am just getting to understand, and I'm hoping to understand more deeply in time.

The idea is this: We are all sisters and brothers. No, stop. ALL of us. Everything in creation was so blessed just by being created. We are in relationship with everything as sisters and brothers. This means, yes, my family and friends, but it means every person in the world is my sister, my brother. AND it doesn't stop there. All of creation holds this sacred relationship. This includes Brother Sun, Sister Moon, Brother Wind, Sister Water, Brother Fire, Sister Mother Earth, and my favorite, Sister Death. What would happen if we thought of everything in creation, every person, every plant and animal, everything as my sister and brother? What would happen if we treated Creation as my sister, my brother?

Wouldn't that change everything?


Let's change.


Feliz Cumple, Hache. 

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

life update

Finally, Jess!

So by now I've been back in the US for as long as I was in Peru. You might be thinking, what have you been doing, Jess? And what the heck are you going to do?

I don't tend to like questions that are all about action since our culture puts such a big emphasis on doing doing doing, but at some point, yes, I've got to be doing something.

For the record, I've been trying to figure out the "what's next" question ever since I set foot in Indiana, but all good things in life take time, don't they? I've been through many an interview and conversation, and I guess at the end of the day, I was the one who said "no" to the several paths that opened up. The only door that shut painfully on my toes was going back to Peru. You've got to know, part of my heart is still and I think will always be in Peru. That's just the reality that happens when you leave (and come back) for service.

But, despite the times I have denied certain opportunities, sometimes to my mother's distress (sorry, mama!) there is one thing to which I have now said "yes." That is, a domestic year of service with the Capuchin Franciscan Volunteer Corps (CapCorps for short), working in Milwaukee, Wisconsin with Columbia St. Mary's (http://www.columbia-stmarys.org/). It is a health care organization with which I will be working in health education. I don't know all the details yet, because the position is very new, but I will be going around with a team of nurses and educators to churches in underserved communities to raise awareness on different topics, such as diabetes, hypertension, and cancer. I will also be working with parental and prenatal education in a program called Blanket of Love that serves young women and teens. Gulp, I know nothing about parenting, but I guess I will learn.

There are a couple of key reasons why I chose CapCorps. I got the sense that the staff really cared about me and were trying to help me grow no matter if I wanted to work with them or not. They looked for a placement in health care for me and found one, because they knew that is for what I was searching. They have also offered me a re-entry retreat for volunteers who have been back in the US for a while since being abroad. They have no responsibility for helping me through re-entry, and yet their offer stood whether I accepted a placement with them or not. That said something to me.

I think, too, that I chose CapCorps because it gives me a new slate in a certain sense, even though I very much see this work as a continuation of what I hoped for and sought in Peru as a JV. I mean, the interest in health care issues stems from getting sick in Peru, from going around to my host mom's work sites. It is deeper than that, but very much connected. Still, the Franciscans have something new and rich to teach me, I can feel it.

Anyways, that's my life update. See the right side bar for my new address. Oh, I'm also leaving in a day, on Thursday, August 4th. It sort of happened really fast (and a lot of it developed while I was sitting outside the Hog's Head at the Wizarding World of Harry Potter in Florida, by the way). I've told virtually no one outside of my family, but this is hopefully changing that.


To new beginnings, new life, and love. 
For a moment
the hunger sits
it is okay to exist.
For a moment
jump and sing
and I really don't care.
For a moment
exhilaration
of being alive.
For a moment.

For a moment
maybe beyond
is right here.
For a moment
there is no past
there is no future
For a moment
There is.
For a moment.

For a moment
Live.
For a moment
Love.
For a moment
Dare.
Not just
For a moment.