If I had not done the online search,
if I had not questioned everything,
if I had not said no,
if I had not said yes.
If I had not showed up, signed up.
If I had not listened,
If I had not listened to myself,
If I had not opened by eyes.
If I had not become nauseous and angry,
if I had not cried and wept alone,
if I had not wept in another's arms,
if I had not stood up.
If I had not taken the risk,
if I had not taken the pen,
if I had not taken my voice back,
if I had not dug in my heels
And dug into the ground.
If I had not picked up the phone,
if I had not looked into your eyes,
if I had not read from my own book,
if I had not told truth.
If I had not dragged myself through the door,
if I had not let go of conviction,
if I had not bruised my heel,
if I had not moved.
If I had not taken off my shoes,
if I had not covered my head,
if I had not let my hair be,
if I had not learned.
We would still know each other.
