Friday, May 20, 2011

sometimes, life sucks.

And that's okay.

Sometimes, people will say 'no' to you. Sometimes many people will say 'no' to you. Sometimes they will keep saying 'no, no, no....' You will have to fight, claw through the grime of negativity, stand in the middle of the desert and not shrink in the pounding sun. You might be the only one who believes in you. You might be the only one who is willing to see.

And that's okay.

Of course, other times people will say 'yes' to you. They will pour awards over you in recognition for what you have done and what you have accomplished. They will believe in you and encourage you.

And that's okay too.

What I have noticed, though, is that what I do during each of these times doesn't change too much. Actually, it doesn't change at all. I breathe deeply. I pray often. I listen to myself. I seek advice from as many people I can. I try to understand my blindness and protect against it. I take time. I pray some more. And at the end of the day, I go with what my gut and my God says is right.

Look, it might feel like the world is against you, or it might seem that the world is with you right now. It doesn't matter if its difficult or easy, as long as it is right. You know what is right. You know what you have to do. And you are not alone. God is with you. The fruits of peace, joy, courage, connectedness, life, and love will come. Do not shy away from what is within your very soul.

You don't have to believe me. I know it is hard. You don't have to agree with me. That's okay too. But I know where I am led. And I have God to answer to. And if God is with me, who can be against me?


"I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself. If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul."  -Oriah Mountain Dreamer

3 comments:

  1. girl, I think of you ALL THE TIME too. =) I'll send you a letter with my mom. So much love to you. And courage.

    Btw... i just added one more line to this blog entry, so read it again. haha.

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  2. mi nina bonita, I believe in you

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